so in light of my recent breakup which, wasn't exactly pretty, i decided to read this book.... i mean seriously, i quit relationships so why not read something that will instill that in my soul.
well thanks to Ashley Jackson, I discovered the existence of "I kissed dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris and decided in a moment of haste to buy it. i mean things couldnt get any worse right?well i've spent the majority of today reading it and I just ran across a paragraph that seriously brought me to tears.
"The world takes us to a silver screen on which flickering images of passion and romance play, and as we watch, the world says, "This is love." God takes us to the foot of a tree on which a naked and bloodied man hangs and says, "THIS is love."
wow. how could i have missed that. after i broke up with matt i felt sad and empty like i had lost something that i could never get back again. i didnt even realize that the love i thought i felt was a fabrication presented to me by my culture. for too long, I've missed his continuous exclamation of unending love for me. instead i've sought that wholeness in intimacy with another human being and yet, i've never been able to figure out why it just wasnt enough.
now i know why it wasn't. And im so thankful that i'm learning this now, instead of rushing into something that wasnt right. I have no idea where i'll be three months from now let alone 3 years but i'm so incredibly thankful to know that He has the timing right. I'm growing to appreciate this gift of Single-ness that God has granted me when i really need it.
kinda cool revelation, i guess.
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