she's beautiful in her simple little way

ok, so here's the deal.... its been almost 3 months since the horrific break up. i've moved on and gotten rid of everything... and i mean everything. i even threw away a teddy bear! i felt bad, but i had to do it. pictures were ripped... it was oh so ceremonial...

anywho, the reason for this blog is cuz i think im ready to date again. the only problem is, there's a guy that im kinda interested in. but i cant be. cuz its just not cool. why is it that when i am finally getting used to being single and happy by myself, i start to realize i have feelings for someone that i've had for a while and never noticed.
of course, he doesnt even give me a second glance; which kinda sucks but i guess its better off this way. life is just way too complicated by itself, and then add a guy into the mix and it turns into a huge mess. well if it's meant to be it will, and if its not then aw well. there's something better out there.

but its super hard not to hope. and its even harder not to make myself into the girl he would want. but im doing my best. if things do work out, i want it to be cuz he likes my crazy real self than the manniquin i would create of myself

anyway, i've been pretty busy lately. i work at jc penney and its pretty okay. i mean its not the greatest and most rewarding job ever but its helping to pay my enormous amount of bills. plus i like the people i work with, they're pretty cool.

anyway, went to aaron's grad party, face got a little redish... pretty sweet stuff. went to natalies last night to hang out.... almost died.. multiple times.. also pretty sweet stuff. seriously miss hanging out with alley, but hopefully we'll fix that these last few weeks before i go back to tennessee...

oh yeah, and im working on my guitar hero skillz... im a little out of shape cuz i havent been playing much, but im getting back on it...