cabin fever setting in.

I have officially spent more time in my living room than outside of it. If you think I'm exaggerating, think again. I'm pretty sure there is a semi-permanent imprint of my behind on my favorite couch cushion on our sorta new living room furniture set. Not to mention the 3 or 4 lbs I have surely put on over the holiday season to create a lasting impression. Oh the joys of being home for the holidays.

I just graduated from college on December 11th. I have no job and a lease in Tennessee until May. Add my AT&T bill each month (yes, the iPhone is necessary) and you have one broke A** Sierra.

So the dilemma I now face: to move home or not to move home (home being akron, ohio where my entire family lives--with the exception of one aunt in florda). Naturally, I've already created a pros and cons list, with free food at home being a major mitigating factor. I'm no closer to making a decision but I am closer to caring less each day. I'm just taking life one day at a time.

Of course, I'm applying for jobs each and every day in ohio, tennessee, massachusetts, new york... east coast, west coast... I even contemplated alaska for a second. I know desperation really isn't an attractive quality in a woman. Heck it isn't attractive in a man either. That said, it's not that I'm desperate for a job. I just want to DO something. Even if it means being a janitor at the elementary school my sister attends (which is conveniently located across the street from my Dad's house), I would do it. Okay, that may be stretching it a little far considering how I am not a huge fan of cleaning up after vom-ing children... but I think my point is made. In the mean time I've decided to accept the fact that I'm here in Ohio for now and that's okay. I get to spend time with my family, utilize that YMCA membership, DVR to my hearts content, keep up with my teams via SportsCenter and all our other sports channels (including the Big Ten Network!), and get plugged in to the running scene here in Akron.

That's right! tomorrow after my morning workout at the Y with my sister and subsequent eye exam (meaning I get new glasses! joy!) I'll be venturing to a specialty running store near downtown Akron to buy a new pair of shoes as I train for another half marathon. I haven't decided which one I'll run but there's countless opportunities to run once spring hits the North and if I'm stuck here I may as well work toward something substantial.

With all the uncertainty of my life aside, I can truly say it's been a long time since I have felt this content. I don't have a full life plan and I'm forced to take it a day at a time. It's a new concept for me but is proving to be rewarding. I'm simply happy and I love that. At the center of that contentment, I'm sure, is my relationship with God. He's proving to be steadfast as always and His consistency is the only thing keeping me sane right now. thank goodness.

Job Status: still searching. apathy threatening.
1/2 marathon training: Jan 3rd begins 5k training. Goal: 10 min/mi and a 5k time under 30 mins or less
Grad School status: applications started at Ohio State, Fordham, Boston U, and Case Western
Housing status: currently residing on the couch adjacent to the christmas tree. Hoping to upgrade to a room, somewhere (anywhere).